So I can't remember the last time I did a 'progress pic' for ANYTHING, but toot-freakin-toot mafa's.
I am 60 days sober off alcohol and cannabis and I have never felt...better?
Eh, I wouldn't actually say better.
I have never felt clearer.
I chose full sobriety as I entered into a 10 day silent Vipassana retreat. It took three days of migraine level withdrawls to fully detox.
I spent the other seven days of that retreat meeting my sober mind, heart, and body. It was a fascinating experience to say the least.
What I did not realize on Feb 13 was what was to come in all of our very near future, this pandemic.
So when I say I've never felt clearer I mean that over the last 60 days I have been facing things that I used to smoke or drink my way through.
I am experiencing my anxiety fully.
I am crying my deepest soul level sadness to the surface.
I am remaining present for my red hot rage that I used to numb out or drown out.
So 'better' may not be my best evaluation, but knowing I am operating at my best feels better.
I am meeting my highest and best self because I am not weighing her down or blurring her vision.
I am not clouding her mind and impairing her judgement.
I am here.
I am clear.
I am very clear about what I came to this planet to do and that is to unleash hearts.
That means starting with my own.
So while 60 days of sobriety is just the beginning, I think we can all agree that the last 60 days has felt like 60 years.
In the last 60 days I have written a book that could not have come through my fingers under the influence.
It comes out on May 1 and when you get it, you will understand exactly why.
We can't hear our divine guidance with clogged ears and foggy minds.
I want to thank my support structures that have been cheering me on and holding me up in my low moments.
This hasn't exactly felt good.
But it sure does feel great to feel in tune with everything happening in my heart, mind, body, and soul
If you've wondered about sobriety; just give it a try.
Put the bottle down.
Put the pipe down.
Toss it out.
Then let your body flush it.
You can do it and you are not alone.
It's time you live a life you love.