Today, I had had 6 calls with my programs, clients, associates, and more.
I paid a bill.
I got to the post office.
I finally got my Real ID and actually walked in and out of the California DMV is LESS than an hour!
I booked more calls and appointments, answered emails, networked, and started new collaborations.
I also ate, meditated, and even napped.
And it's 'still not enough.'
It was not enough to feel accomplished enough to negate this lump in my throat.
I couldn't achieve or succeed my way out of it.
Anxiety has had a hold on me since Tuesday and gaining its own momentum.
As an Empath, all of this Coronavirus conversation is activating all my feelers.
I am absorbing the collective pain, fear, rage, scarcity, and suffering of humanity and I have aches and pains in my body that I don't have on a daily basis.
My energy centers are SUPER out of whack and I am feeling heavy, sad, and lethargic.
All of a sudden, I have been extra worried about money, time, and responsibilities.
I am feeling behind and rushed.
I am pondering irrational fears that I have worked out in all of my coaching, therapy, and transformational work.
This evening, this lump in my throat feels more like a full on choke hold.
Worst of all, it's an invisible one.
I can't wrestle my attacker to the ground.
I can't kick and run.
I can wiggle my way out.
I have to relax my way out because the harder I fight, the tighter it gets.
Relaxing into my struggles is a technique I learned in my years as an emotional intelligence expert.
I have come to understand that we create our misery in our attempts to avoid our misery.⬅️
Facing it frees us up and so oddly enough, I have become very grateful for the lump in my throat.
It is my body's physical communication to slow down and pay attention. My body is shouting 'SOMETHING'S WRONG HERE!'
I used to ignore this. I used to try to achieve and succeed my way out of this feeling and it has cost me so much so many times.
That strangled feeling has crippled me in many instances and prevented me from making sound, healthy, empowered choices.
Now, I know to pay attention to it.
I know pain is my body talking to me and I am willing to listen attentively.
Because of that, I don't have to spiral.
This LEARNED AND PRACTICED skill has been the direct cause of my growth and maturity that has evolved my business, relationships, and life.
I am less reactive everywhere in life and I am able to make powerful choices that I am proud of and satisfied with.
So right now, my throat hurts.
And so right now, I am going to slow down, pay attention, listen inward, and honor what I hear.
I am going to care for myself and anyone I come into contact with because I recognize that basically everyone on the planet is going to be impacted by this pandemic (of hysteria) and is going to need some love, care, compassion, and guidance.
So if you have a lump in your throat, a weight on your chest, a knot in your stomach, a cramp, a sting, or whatever, your body is talking to you....and it only speaks in whispers.
Slow down so you can listen in.
The answers you seek lie dormant within.
Eyes up, ears on, heart open.
We cannot serve from a low frequency and so it is your responsibility to take care of yourself so that we can heal as a Collective.
If you are not a part of the solution, are a part of the problem. Please act consciously.
If you are feeling as heavy and constructed as I am today, I invite you to educate yourself about what it means to be an Empath with my Empath Empowerment Series.
I wish so much that I had some way to work one on one with every human everywhere and I had to accept that I can't.
*no really, like I had to mourn that idea/hope/plan cause I really wanted to.*
Because I cannot physically do that, this series was the most effective way I knew I could support the softest Hearts of humanity, the bleeding hearts, the Empaths.
I truly hope it serves you.
I love you.
I love Me.
I love Love.
Good night. Be well. Be kind.