A Codependent Thought Stream

I am so angry with you.
I have sadness for you too.

I'm angry about how helpless you act and I am sad about how much life and joy you are missing out on with your misdirected energy.

I am pissed that you don't take more responsibility for yourself and I am sad that you put your self worth in other's hands.

I am upset that you sit and wallow and I am sad that you refuse to accept that you perpetuate your misery with these thoughts, feelings, and behaviors.

I take responsibility for my anger and sadness.

I take responsibility for my judgment and blame.

I take responsibility for enabling and perpetuating your behaviors WITH my anger and sadness and I choose new today.

I choose love.
I choose to see love.
I choose to be love.

I choose to disengage for as long as it takes for you to see that it is you and only you who can make you feel whole, worthy, and complete.

I will disengage and love you right where you are in your journey.

I will forgive myself for moving forward and loving you from of distance.

I choose love and I always will.
I will not "love" with anger or upset.
I will not "love" with blame or judgment.
I will just let go and let love.

Years of anger, sadness, blame, and judgment have cost me (and you) peace and joy.

However, you cannot fully appreciate one without a contrast of the other.
You cannot know success without failure.

You cannot hear words without the silence in between them.

It was years of focusing on, reacting to, and speaking about what I don't want to so whole heartedly know, accept, and be able to announce what I do want.

What I want is to feel good.
What I want is to feel safe.
What I want is love.

I choose love as fast and frequently as possible.

I choose me.

I choose love.

I choose to love me.

I choose to love you, near or far.

I will always choose love above all.
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