First and foremost, I am sorry for your loss.
It is important to feel this feeling of loss.
Grieve, unravel, wallow, and lament over it.
That is what your ego would love for you to do.
You are a human and you were blessed with feelings.
The thing to do with feelings is to feel them fully and IF you commit to feeling them fully, you will actually feel your way ALL THE WAY through them and they will dissipate.
You are currently collapsing your current progress and success with the death of the loved one.
Your ego also loves this because you are subconsciously associating your success with other's death.
This will ensure the death of your success.
Grieve and feel....and rest and heal.
Become conscious enough not to spiral into oblivion questioning everything.
You are doing amazing work and with that growth will come fresh tests of your new skills and awarenesses.
Breathe deeply and begin to enhance your grounding practices that will bring you back to center fast and frequently.
You are not alone here on Earth.
Your loved one is not gone, she has transitioned, and it is VERY likely she will be assisting the growth of your life and business in very magical ways now, if you can work yourself through your grief enough to proceed with your purpose.
You got this.
Breathe, cry, and exhale love ❤