"Becoming human has been my greatest adventure."
-Giving Up Giving Up: The Memoir of a Quitter
A HUBC participant quoted me the other evening and I got off the call and cried tears of joy and appreciation.
It has been 3 years since I wrote that sentence and when she read that, I felt myself on the other side of that specific breakthrough.
When I was growing up, I convinced myself that I had to be perfect; the perfect daughter, student, athlete, coach, teacher, consultant, manager, and more.
I remember whole years of my life wishing I were a robot who didn't need sleep, food, and water. I even judged myself for being hungry, tired, or worn out.
"There is no time for that!" I would criticize myself harshly.
I wanted to be invincible and refused to acknowledge that I wasn't.
I refused to acknowledge my humanity.
I refused to acknowledge my needs.
I refused to acknowledge my pain.
This didn't work and finally I broke down.
My first breakdown seemed to lead to a whole stream of 'backlogged' breakdowns that I also refused to acknowledge.
So after being shown my humanness in very rapid succession, I decided to accept my humanity.
This began an entirely new process of meeting ME; not the athlete, not the daughter, not the teacher, girlfriend, or sister. ME.
This me was very different than any me I had ever been, but the truth was that I 'recognized' her. I had never been her, but she had always existed as if she was simply waiting her turn to live unleashed and on display.
This divine feminine being was gracefully and very patiently waiting for this human me to exhaust every other identity in order to fully accept my most authentic nature.
From there, I experienced my spirit and human bodies become one.
I felt the union of every facet of my being join forces in forward momentum.
I finally understood how important being an energetic being, having a human experience actually is. I accepted that the human journey is the only reason I am here; TO BE HERE ON PURPOSE and show others how important it is to be the human we came to be.
Becoming human has truly become my greatest adventure.
Everyday is a new and thrilling journey.
In my growth, I learned that every adventure will go however it does.
How it goes doesn't make it any more or less of of an adventure, just a different one.
Our souls came into these bodies to experience the human adventure.
Be all of it and make it great.
It will surely be your greatest adventure yet.