Okay, folks. I am stretching on this one but stay with me. It's a real epiphany I had today.
I have spent everyday of the last 6 years seriously worried, stressed, sad, or angry about my debt. I have been so frustrated about starting life 'in the pit.' I blamed society, life, and misfortune.
I have resented the 'injustices' of this cruel world for being born in a time that college is so necessary AND expensive! I had been griping about the general cost of living and the fact that I had chosen a career path that would equate to getting paid in hugs and kisses.
Quickly after college, I became blind to the world and my blessings. EVERYTHING seemed to cost money....and lots of it. I could only see the world in shades of green. There seemed to be no getting ahead and definitely no financial freedom.
So financial freedom became my only goal and I chased it down like a crazy mofo! Life kept happening in the meantime and I only related to how much it costs. Money drowned me and I was swimming furiously...and swimming...and swimming.
This whole pattern got halted a few months after divorce. The vision of the house, car, hubby, and baby went away and there I sat, alone, confused, and hurt. My whole mindset changed from getting what I don't have to BEING WITH and actually enjoying what I DO have! I seriously had to CHOOSE to shift my focus from the void to the abundance.
As I stretched and flexed my muscles in this this new arena, time became my new currency. Time for my people. Time for experience and adventure. Time to create real memories that I want to have about my 20's.
Time for Me.
Let's fast track and swing this around to actually being grateful for my debt! Every single dollar spent that I have yet to pay back has been spent on an amazing life experience!
Whatever school, flights, weekends, coaching program, even a few pizzas and cocktails; every dollar I've spent has been spent on an experience that has contributed to a life I am so grateful for.
If I had to do it over and choose it all again, I most certainly would. I would put myself right back into the same debt with a grateful smile knowing what I am in store for. Knowing the life I have had and am creating.
I have stopped looking for the back door bail out.
I will not sell my soul and precious time on earth for all the money.
I will not bail out on my calling and gifts just to make a quick buck.
I will not find a sugar daddy!!
I am choosing to pursue getting paid for Being Me.
I will coach.
I will lead.
I will guide.
I will heal.
I will speak.
I will share.
I will succeed.
My newest practice is valuing who I am and asking my worth. I will attract money I deserve for 'work' I love doing. I have no doubt who I am will pay the bills. In fact, the bills become an after thought when I think of my fully developed self as a woman, coach, and professional.
I am not on a money mission. I am on a mission to leave hearts of this world better off than I found them. I am here to light fires in souls that have been smothered by those injustices I was griping about earlier. I am here to shine a light on what being Here is all about, living.
I chose to live. I choose gratitude. I choose to share what's available when you spend the true time getting to know and love yourself.
What do you choose?
What are you trading for money?
What does getting money actually cost you?
The time/money relationship is like silly putty that can be shaped to suit your spirit.
What would it look like to get paid for Being YOU???
If you are truly ready to explore that option, I would love to have that conversation with you.