I didn't know (until I did) that my religious conditioning had me believing that surrendering to the will of God/Spirit would turn me into the traditional catholic saint/martyr that has to renounce all my life, relationships, and possessions and live as a pauper.
I had so often feared that surrendering to the urges and downloads of spirit would require I release all worldly needs and desires.
I thought surrender equaled a sacrifice of joy.
This belief has capped my level of surrender and fear of releasing control.
"I surrender (as long as it will take me where I imagine)" is not surrender.
I had to decondition my religiously rooted narratives and make my personal connection with the divine to understand, accept, and trust that spirit is benevolent and has my best interests and wellbeing in mind.
I believe we are inherently good.
I believe we are fragments of god/spirit/divine who have access to the infinite intelligence of all that is.
I believe we come from unconditional love and grace.
I believe that the human experience can be challenging, not that we have fallen from grace and must earn our way back to a heaven or promised land.
I believe that we have endless potential.
I believe that joy, love, and abundance are part of a divine life as much as surrender, compromise, sadness, fear, grief, and more.
I believe in the entire range of emotions and experiences and getting to have the most adventurous and beautiful life possible.
I believe it can be so fun to surrender to the inspirations of spirit - specifically the guidance far beyond our sense or comprehension or desire.
I am constantly committed to a level of surrender that I cannot possibly predict and I am willing to believe it is better than I could ever dream up, plan, or design myself.
This has been a healing and evolution for the last two years, specifically, as the Mystic within has emerged.
I have been able to feel, hear, and sense spirit from within and the guidance and urges have gotten stronger with time and more surrender.
If you have been experiencing this ascension, I invite you to join me at the Mystic Rising Retreat in Sedona this September.
We will be working on areas such as:
Healing in the Feeling
The Power of the Pause
Radical Self Acceptance
Chanting, Channeling, Crystal Work
The Vipassana Meditation Practice
Hear the Unsaid, Feel the Unfelt, See the Unshown
Building a Mystic Business
If you are a leader and your spiritual leadership is making its way through, I encourage you to lean in further towards your calling and development.