​I will be all used up the day I die.

The year and a half after divorce, I would call my sister, Emily, before my riskiest adventures of skydiving, snowboarding, backpacking, solo camping...my 1st match.com date...

I would send her my coordinates before a perceived risky situation and remind her "If I die, I died livin'!!!" 

I haven't called her like that lately.

Not due to any shortage of adventures but because I have recalibrated my assessment of risk.

After more than a year and a half of flinging myself out of (quite literally) my physical comfort zone, I began finding myself out side of my emotional comfort zone.

Once I experienced myself capable of scaling the side of a mountain, I began to expand my range of emotions. 

Once I realized dating in my thirties wouldn't kill me, I accepted that neither would expressing myself in an unabashed unapologetic way. 

My physical adventures have supported my emotional journey.

Jumping off a cliff in the Grecian islands felt the same as telling my parents that I was afraid of disappointing them.

Once it was done, it was done. 

Scuba diving 60 ft deep in the shores of Cabo was as breathtaking as calling my husband to talk about our divorce 3 years after the fact. 

Standing atop mountains of Joshua Tree feels as monumental as standing on stage in front of a 1000 people telling them about my addiction to perfection and fear of rejection. 

The phone calls to my sister joking about them potentially being "My Last One" were always equally playful and serious. 

The risk of the adventure is both playful and serious. ​

At the end of my life, I will be as used up as I can be. 

I will have given it my all.

I will have shed every attachment.

I will have released every fear, hope, insecurity, dream, doubt, and vision to a force much greater than me. 

I have been doing this for years now. 

Every risk, from defying gravity to defying my fears, I face head on knowing that I am nothing. 

And nothing can stop me from living my fullest life. 

By the end of it, I will be all used up having said yes to everything I wish to. 

Yes to the adventure.
Yes to my relationships.
Yes to my desires.
Yes to me.
Yes to my dreams.
Yes to my potential.
Yes to my passion.
Yes to my flavor of genius. ​

I am here to make waves.
I am here to make a difference.
I am here to lead by example.
I am here.
I am here.
I am here. 
I am here.
I am here. 

I am astonished with myself.

Simply astonished.

My zone of genius is my ability to connect, hear, understand  love and transmute energy. 

I am an Alchemist.

I am able to restore and unleash others.
I am nothing and I am everything. 
I am galactic. 
I am grounded. 
I am.
You are. 
We are. 

It's time you live Unleashed. ​