I had THE BEST DAY at my favorite place with some of my favorite people!
Hanging out at the big beautiful ocean burying babes and diggin' up sea creatures was everything I could have asked for this Sunny Sunday. Followed up by a Sunday Success training call with Jen's team this evening, I am truly so blessed to work how I want, where I want, when I want, with who I want. If anyone ever tells you that you have to compromise the fullest vision you have for yourself, it's because they have. You know you best. You know what you want, and you know when you have or haven't reached it. If you never give up and practice unfathomable patience, it will be yours. When it comes to manifesting the life of your dreams, learn when to rest, not quit. You have a vision on your heart for a reason. When the path gets dark or scary, just move slowly and faithfully knowing that you are divinely guided and provided for. Keep showing up for it and it will show up for you. You can have it all! Are you following The English Muffins adventures on FB and Instagram yet? Cause I think you would enjoy their joy... I sure do.
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My new book went to the printer today and I have officially given birth to a new baby; She is in the incubator and comes out on Thanksgiving Day.
She weighed in at a whopping 65,000 words and 282 pages! A new personal record for these fingertips. This brain is drained. This heart has been poured into another piece work. Like a mother of her third child, labor never not hurts and it is equally rewarding. I am exhausted. I can barely put full sentences together so this Gratitude will be brief, bold, and brilliant. This book is divine and dynamic. It is packed with infinite intelligence. It is a guidebook for Alchemists. It is a manual for winning the game of life. It is a how-to of leadership and manifestation. It paves a path for the evolution of humanity and it is available for preorder at abigailgazda.com/books My Gratitude comes from a realization I had in my Hearts Unleashed Podcast interview with Zach Heckendorf yesterday. He reminded me that I started this book from scratch in June and wrote my longest manuscript in 3.5 months. I am so freakin' grateful for my gifts, skills, and clarity. I am so grateful for my blissful joy. I am so grateful for the physical and energetic support I have surrounding me. I am grateful for ability to sense my intuition and my willingness to follow it. I am grateful for the inner work available to remove the blocks that could prevent me from putting my work out there and I am so grateful I have never given up. I am blissfully exhausted. ...and I am blissfully grateful to be living a life I love.
I heard today's devotional through the filter of joy and Gratitude and it made me so eager to share with you.
The identity of God may not resonate for you and that is okay. In my upcoming book, Alchemizing Judgment: A Guide Back To Love, I explain how the core of everything is Love. If you are like me, I did not have a true or healthy relationship with God for the first 30 years of my life. Give this a read, strictly from love and see what lands in your heart. You could even exchange 'God' for 'Love' and see a new level of responsibility to be love in this world. Everything comes from and returns to Love. "Cheerfulness prepares a glorious mind for all the noblest acts." — St. Elizabeth Ann Seton "The true reason for which God bestows so many graces upon the humble is this, that the humble are faithful to these graces and make good use of them. They receive them from God and use them in a manner pleasing to God, giving all the glory to Him, without reserving any for themselves. ... It is certainly true that he who is humble is also faithful to God, because the humble man is also just in giving to all their due, and above all, in rendering to God the things that are God's; that is, in giving Him the glory for all the good that he is, all the good that he has and for all the good that he does; as the Venerable Bede says: 'Whatever good we see in ourselves, let us ascribe it to God and not to ourselves.' To give thanks to God for all the blessings we have received and are continually receiving is an excellent means of exercising humility, because by thanksgiving we learn to acknowledge the Supreme Giver of every good. And for this reason it is necessary for us always to be humble before God. St. Paul exhorts us to render thanks for all things and at all times: 'In all things give thanks.' (1 Thess. 5:18). 'Giving thanks always for all things.' (Eph. 5:20). But that our thanksgiving may be an act of humility it must not only come from the lips but from the heart, with a firm conviction that all good comes to us through the infinite mercy of God." — Rev. Cajetan da Bergamo, p. 87-8 of Humility Of Heart
For those constantly asking and seemingly never finding answers or relief.
Find peace in God's silence. "Has God trusted you with His silence— a silence that has great meaning? God’s silences are actually His answers. Just think of those days of absolute silence in the home at Bethany! Is there anything comparable to those days in your life? Can God trust you like that, or are you still asking Him for a visible answer? God will give you the very blessings you ask if you refuse to go any further without them, but His silence is the sign that He is bringing you into an even more wonderful understanding of Himself. Are you mourning before God because you have not had an audible response? When you cannot hear God, you will find that He has trusted you in the most intimate way possible— with absolute silence, not a silence of despair, but one of pleasure, because He saw that you could withstand an even bigger revelation. If God has given you a silence, then praise Him— He is bringing you into the mainstream of His purposes. The actual evidence of the answer in time is simply a matter of God’s sovereignty. Time is nothing to God. For a while you may have said, “I asked God to give me bread, but He gave me a stone instead” (see Matthew 7:9). He did not give you a stone, and today you find that He gave you the “bread of life” (John 6:35). A wonderful thing about God’s silence is that His stillness is contagious— it gets into you, causing you to become perfectly confident so that you can honestly say, “I know that God has heard me.” His silence is the very proof that He has. As long as you have the idea that God will always bless you in answer to prayer, He will do it, but He will never give you the grace of His silence. If Jesus Christ is bringing you into the understanding that prayer is for the glorifying of His Father, then He will give you the first sign of His intimacy— silence." From My Utmost for His Highest Isaiah 37-38; Colossians 3
I have been moving 100 miles a minute for the last 9 days.
Today, I crashed. My head won't stop pounding and I know it is time to reset. So in bed at 9pm it is. I have about 97 things to do and twice as many messages to follow up on. My brain is swirling with excitement, commitment, and passion and none of it will get addressed tonight. I have been on a 9 day emotional high and although I am so interested in keeping this transformation train a rollin' I know I can restart the engine in the morning. I coach my own clients to rest after, complete, and celebrate their victories. Well there have been so many wins in such rapid succession that I have hardly taken a breath to fully take them all in. So tonight, I turn off all obligation, responsibilities, and commitments to recharge. Tonight isn't even the time to do the work of witnessing it all. It is a night to completely turn off and tune out. Be back tomorrow to lean back into all the goodness. There is so so so so soooooooo much to be grateful for.
"Becoming human has been my greatest adventure."
-Giving Up Giving Up: The Memoir of a Quitter A HUBC participant quoted me the other evening and I got off the call and cried tears of joy and appreciation. It has been 3 years since I wrote that sentence and when she read that, I felt myself on the other side of that specific breakthrough. When I was growing up, I convinced myself that I had to be perfect; the perfect daughter, student, athlete, coach, teacher, consultant, manager, and more. I remember whole years of my life wishing I were a robot who didn't need sleep, food, and water. I even judged myself for being hungry, tired, or worn out. "There is no time for that!" I would criticize myself harshly. I wanted to be invincible and refused to acknowledge that I wasn't. I refused to acknowledge my humanity. I refused to acknowledge my needs. I refused to acknowledge my pain. This didn't work and finally I broke down. My first breakdown seemed to lead to a whole stream of 'backlogged' breakdowns that I also refused to acknowledge. So after being shown my humanness in very rapid succession, I decided to accept my humanity. This began an entirely new process of meeting ME; not the athlete, not the daughter, not the teacher, girlfriend, or sister. ME. This me was very different than any me I had ever been, but the truth was that I 'recognized' her. I had never been her, but she had always existed as if she was simply waiting her turn to live unleashed and on display. This divine feminine being was gracefully and very patiently waiting for this human me to exhaust every other identity in order to fully accept my most authentic nature. From there, I experienced my spirit and human bodies become one. I felt the union of every facet of my being join forces in forward momentum. I finally understood how important being an energetic being, having a human experience actually is. I accepted that the human journey is the only reason I am here; TO BE HERE ON PURPOSE and show others how important it is to be the human we came to be. Becoming human has truly become my greatest adventure. Everyday is a new and thrilling journey. In my growth, I learned that every adventure will go however it does. How it goes doesn't make it any more or less of of an adventure, just a different one. Our souls came into these bodies to experience the human adventure. Be human. Be spirit. Be all of it and make it great. It will surely be your greatest adventure yet. http://www.abigailgazda.com/books.html
It took me 2.5 years to grow all of the hair dye out of my hair.
I remember having a love/hate relationship with being super blonde. -It was so much maintenance. -It looked greasy often. -People didn't take me as seriously (seriously) -ROOTS! -I did feel sexy. -It got good attention. -I felt cute, relatable, and approachable. Before, I had this (very subtle) belief that I needed the blonde hair TO BE cute, relatable, sexy, and approachable. Now, with my natural hair grown out I feel all those things and more. But I discovered something I hadn't realized before getting all the way back to these bronze locks; I was going for natural and I arrived at whole and complete. I am not my blonde hair. I am not my hair at all. I am not my looks. I am not my smarts. I am not my achievements. I am not my company. I am not my title. None of that. I am an energetic being having a human experience and this soul is boundless. This soul doesn't have a name, face, or hair to dye. This soul doesn't have a career, mission, or message. This soul is pure light shining bright. Just like the sun. No mission. No message. No purpose. No measurement. Just light. Just shine, my friend. You don't need to be, do, or have anything. Just shine.
A handful of you know this amazing man and many of you don't...at least not yet.
A handful of you know our fun story and many of you don't...at least not yet. A handful of you have reached out to ask or celebrate and congratulate and it has been so appreciated. I have been wrapping up my next book, Alchemizing Judgment, and simply didn't have the brain juice left to write the full, heartfelt Gratitude post like I knew I wanted to. The book is complete and here I am on a night of total awe and appreciation for this man. I met Tim back in 2016 through a mutual coaching network and we stayed connected over the years. We worked together in many ways and we have supported each other in many endeavors. Although it took me two years to get him on the Hearts Unleashed Podcast, I was thrilled to share his brilliance with my audience and now I am excited to share him with you in more detail. Once coach and client, Timothy helped me work on healing and transforming my life, business, and spirituality. He helped release my past, write two books in one year, quadruple my business, and recreate my relationship with God. (I sure am glad I dedicated Talking to the Trees to him before we started a relationship otherwise it might look like nepotism now ) One of my favorite things to joke about is that I told him everything I wanted in a man before I recognized him as that man. I told him everything I wanted out of life before he offered to join me in life. I was unabashed in my coaching with Timothy. I was raw and open and never held back in the work. I was the most me ever and he helped me discover next level versions of myself I was too hesitant to share. This consistently proved to be beneficial and when our relationship shifted after an in person retreat, I understood that he knew who and what he was choosing by choosing a relationship with me. We align in so many ways. We communicate effectively and lovingly. We have fun. We have direction... We have very similar direction. We honor our guidance. We honor each other. We honor God. And he's weird like me. I WISH I could compile the most robust expression of gratitude for how it feels to be his partner. I wish I could. It might take another book... I am grateful he knew what he was choosing not because I 'feel so lucky' to finally be chosen by a man. I am so grateful to myself for allowing my full self to live unleashed. I am grateful for the day I became willing to admit how ready I was for love again. I am grateful to him for guiding me through that work. I am grateful for how big I experience his being. I am grateful for the divine intervention of that retreat. There may be ethical thoughts, questions, or concerns about how two might shift from coach/client to couple. That answer is simple: ethically. That retreat showed me the man that Tim is, not the coach. Similar to the day we realize our parents are just other people in the world figuring out life too, I saw the human Tim. I saw his heart bigger than I ever saw it. I saw his light shine right out of his big brown eyes and huge smile. My heart shifted from looking to him to transform my life to becoming a part of it instead. As quickly as a camera lens adjusts its focus, I could see my counterpart in plain view. It took me another week to confess my love and let me tell you; my honesty worked out in my favor. I am grateful I was so honest with myself so that I can be so honest with him, and he with me. I am grateful for the paths life has taken us down and that they intersect here. I am grateful I made my inner work a priority as to have a heart ready for so much love, abundance, and joy. I am grateful for my own commitment to authenticity that has empowered me to align with such an amazing human. I am grateful for who Tim is in every facet of his being. I am just so purely grateful.
My upcoming book Alchemizing Judgment: A Guide Back to Love comes out on Thanksgiving Day 2020.
The dead dead DEADLINE for the first draft is this Friday, August 28th. I have been channeling twice as much detail and material than I thought and this book feels like birthing a 10lbs baby! I am grateful for the frequency and guidance of the palms, ocean, and moon that pushes and pulls energy to and through me to write this work of heart. I am grateful to sit in the back seat of my Jeep with my feet propped up on the middle console absorbing the ocean energy being released by the crashing waves. It fills up my soul through my soles as words pour out of my fingertips onto the keyboard. I am so grateful to speak the language of the Earth and feel empowered to communicate her messages. If you would like to hear more about what Mother Nature has to say and you just can't wait to get Alchemizing Judgment, grab a copy of my ebook Talking to the Trees on Amazon today. Only get it if you are ready to head on a wild adventure! I have been THRILLED to hear how impactful it is for my readers. It will take you on a mental and emotional roadtrip with the main character, Madeline. http://www.abigailgazda.com/books.html We just wrapped up our first ever Talking to the Trees HUBC tonight and the next one launches on September 1 @ 5pm pst if you are interested in joining a sisterhood of spiritual support. http://www.abigailgazda.com/store/p34/September_1_Hearts_Unleashed_Book_Club_with_Abigail_Gazda_Talking_to_the_Trees.html As for now, I will get back to wrapping up this next book baby and get ready to hand her over to Valerie Irvine for edit! Get ready and stay grateful, my friends. This one's gunna be a goodie!
I had no idea life could be this good.
I always thought you had to compromise. I was always taught, told, and shown that it must be a hard struggle to feel good and be happy. Now, granted I have had to see, hold, and trust the vision for my life to be able to have it. I didn't always believe or know it would turn out the way it has. I had different goals 5 years ago and when it all fell apart, it didn't make sense. When I hit the reset button and began unraveling a life of false sense of success, I discovered a truer me. I began being truer to myself. I began trusting myself. I began trusting my higher power. I began trusting in the good. I began trusting that I am cared for, provided for, and loved and it was then and only then did I truly open the flood gates of blessings to rain on down. And they sure are. I just got out of Yosemite National Park from a backpacking trip and made my way to Bend Oregon to celebrate all the August birthdays in my family. I am writing my third book that is constantly blowing my mind and bringing me so much joy! It is so good and so is everything Hearts Unleashed has coming down the pipe this fall! I can take time off to enjoy my people and build new relationships while maintaining a thriving business that has a beautiful impact on the world. I get to enjoy life and nature without living for the weekend or a vacation. I knew this life was possible but as short as 5 years ago, I wasn't dreaming this for myself. I thought it was for the movies or exclusive to the filthy rich. I just got done (paper) journaling some Gratitude and thanking God for helping me clear my doubt, unlovablity, and undeservedness that was preventing me from creating this life. It is so possible and available. Life can be this good. Life can be this great. Life IS great! My Gratitude is growing with me and my life is growing in leaps and bounds. Praise sweet baby Jesus for the head and heart work. It shall set anyone free to live a life they love. You are free to choose a life you love. Here are a few pix from the weekend's adventures |