Death has shown up on my doorstep 3 times in the last 9 days.
All 3 very different circumstances, situations, and degrees of separation, however, I have had the experience of standing side-by-side with the Grim Reaper more than once in less than a week and a 1/2. Once was tolerable. Twice was freaky. Third time yanked my heart right out of my chest.
My inner peace has been disrupted in a way that I am having a hard time restoring.
I have always been grateful to my parents for loving me and raising me in a way that has somehow made me okay with death. I have always been provided the natural perspective that humans die and life goes on. I have learned to honor death by living and it inspires me to bounce back quickly.
Because of this, I've always known myself to have a large capacity for death and have learned to appreciate it. I am feeling tested more than ever at this time and I almost feel as if I am failing this test.
It's been sobering.
It's knocked me off balance.
I have been feeling very edgy and paranoid.
The most valuable lessons that I have learned in my coaching career is to honor our humanity and speak our truths. As I have learned these life altering practices, my life has altered.
To honor our humanity gives us the space to feel our feelings. Feelings ARE temporary when we allow them to move THROUGH us and the only way to keep them moving is to let them out. To bottle up our hurt, anxiety, fear, frustration, etc, we harbor them in our hearts. They fester in there and steal our joy. They block our ability to let love flow.
This creates not just an internal mess but also can generate deeper feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. We can feel isolated and play into it by isolating ourselves.
Because I have learned this lesson, I honor it. I have learned to speak my truth and find my streams of support. It is my job to open my heart and let love in.
*Our people CANNOT support us if they do not know what we are going through*
There are times when simple journaling, church, or mediation will do it for you. Sometimes, our family will suffice. Sometimes, our friends have exactly what we need to hear. Other times, it may require a professional's perspective and help. Do not block the source that will serve you in expressing yourself and your needs when it comes to healthy healing.
"What we resists, persists."
Do not resist your needs.
Do not resist your thoughts.
Allow your internal dialogue to flow.
Allow your heart's whispers to be heard.
Be with your fears long enough to work through them.
Bring your unseen battles to light.
They cannot conquer you there.
You are ALREADY bigger than what you think controls you. Your restored power and your Tribe behind you will get you over every mountain you face.
Do not surrender.
Live out loud.
Live the life you love.
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